i felt so wrong to type this but i feel like crying for all of a sudden. When i dont even know why. i know when my eye keep twitching i know i going to cry one day. & as badly as a baby cried for milk. I dont know whats wrong with me. One day i go happy, one day i go sad, one day i go crazy and one day i go mad ! sometimes i want to be your ONLY friend but im being too shelfish because i know im not like that. Everytime i tried to say that i miss you, and you know i do, i thought you do something on it but turns out you dont. i want to see you so badly but when i see you i dont know what to talk.

i thought waiting for my friends every tuesday outside thier school i could bump into you and make it a coincident but my wish always didnt turn up. So lembus, i dont think i will be waiting for you guys again on tuesday. im sorry. im tried of waiting for more then 2hours.

i dont know what i want but i know i want to see/meet you. How badly i want to see/meet you, i keep it to myself or sometimes i will brag to lembuss. No matter how frustated i am with you, i didnt show that i am frustrated/angry. I dont know why i always happy when you're around. & i want to be your only longest best awesome "girl-friend" but i dont think i can.

Sometimes im angry at myself for being stupid, for being such a bitch. sometimes i hate myself for being like this. sometimes i feel like killing myself for acting so stupidly. but theres no one time i love for being who am i. never, once. okie maybe other kind of stuff that i like about myself for understand people easily. This is the other thing, i understand people easily but people dont understand me but i dont care much about it.

then i just got one favour from you.

love, your friend.
(i need a holiday badly)