i should have known it from the start
cause this is goodbye.

i cant stand it anymore. i dont want to be like one retarded asshole sitting at home and doing nothing. i keep lying to myself by saying, nah.. im okiee. double the O.K. which actually im not. i dont know whats got into me. i feel so Fcked up right now and i feel like killing everybody who is talking to me. hahaha ! nah.. kidding.

i borrowed a book and i feel so stupid to read that book. dont ask me why. okie, i want to go back to the bookworm syahirah. 24/7 reading book. HEY ! dont judge the book by its cover okie ! i used to 24/7 reading love story-book !

for the record, i think i want go swimming one day. & i told ain and mooty yesterday that i want to admit(?) in a hospital till i die ! HAHAHAH !! emo sia ! nono ! syahirah is not emo-ing. shes just testing only. oh ! yes yesterday fireworks was super pretty. Especially the heart shape fireworks. HAHAHA !! ain tried to snap a picture of it but shes too late to get. aww, too bad.