 Today suppose to be a special day for me where i pray at 7.45pm and tell Allah what i want for all my life but turn out that I've over slept and mum didn't really woke me up but she keep deny it that she do woke me up. I got frustrated ! I'm already dumb and lazy but I knew i can pray to Allah everyday but somehow i felt today is not other kind of day.Now i felt I've lose something that I wanted so badly and that is going to Shatec. I really want to go there and I've pray for it like everyday and I felt that the chances of going there is 40%. I've already done badly in prelim and I don't want to do badly in nlevel. Everyday I keep on think whether I can do better in Nlevel and I got worried too! I don't want to feel worried. You see, the worst people in class pass their english but as for me I FAIL IT ! I fail it BADLY ! People keep saying that it is only prelim, it is only paper2 but somehow do you think I can do bloody well in my bloody paper1. If i fail english for nlevel, I've got NOTHING ! N.O.T.H.I.N.G ! People always say that I can do everything, anything but you can't see how terrified i am going through difficult stuff ! This is so sucky ! I want to be confident I want to study I want to be hardworking I want good results but everything just walk pass me. love nursyahirah |