This whole week im having cheerleading. It was last minute decision(?). Since i join cheerleading especially practise time i felt that i was extra ! I don feel that i belong with them but i just kept quiet. Today cheerleading started at 2.30pm but most of the people are not there. Annisaah and some of her cheerleaders were playing around. Laughing, Joking at each other. They asked me to join them but i just don want too. I just don feel like i belong to be in cheerleading "family". I was there with them but some how they treated me differently. I just don really know how to explain. But all i know or felt that im extra ! I went home at 6.15pm, went home alone. I just can't stand the pain-ness inside my heart. But i do help annisaah doing her costume, where to buy, which shop to buy, what colour nice. But i don feel like they accpect me as one of them. Tomorrow is the actually event and i don feel like perfomaning. Now that i reliase that my stupid dream will be gone. I used to dream to be one of the cool hip hop dancer, but now i reliase that i am not at all. Nizar give a comment that im not soft too skinny. Ain says that annisaah dance with some flow on it but me ? NO COMMENT most probably i SUCK in dancing ! People always says just belieave in your dream and one day it will come ture but i don think so. It is just luck ! Annisaah told me that one of the cheerleaders, hafiy will be migrant to dubai. He will be going on the 26 may 2008. But it is actually on the mid-year-exam time. I dont understand some parents, they want thier children to migrant to other country with them but thier children are much more happier in thier own country. And still they should undertsand that it is exam time, at least finish up his exam first and you all can migrant to dubai. It is such a SILLY mistake. He is just in sec1 and he just started to know other people around the school and still many older girls like him due to his cute-ness and his stlye-ness. Talking about guys.. I hate one of my classmate named benjamin. He such an arsh-hole ! He just want to act daring. He will 24 hours with his phone. Even in lesson time. People come to school to study but he come to school to MSG other people but actually he didn't even msg people but he just checking his NEW ugly phone. I am so PISS OFF with him ! English time i am so SWAY, oral time i partner with him. CRAP ! ARSH-HOLE GUY ! label: I still have not meet JONAS BROTHERS SEY !