okie i keep asking myself, Why am i still in EARTH?

I have a irritating neighbour who always drilling !
I have a ****ing sister. (sorry to say that)
I have a mum who always side with my two sister.

thats why i keep on asking myself Why am i still in Earth ?! Whatever i do i get scolded ! if not they will call me names. okie i know im not the girl who wears make up and always want to try on fake eyelash and those staff. They still can says," ermm.. i think ahrr my small sis is a guy."

I just wish i could scold them bad word but if i did that later turn up im the one who gets scolded. Like today:

me: ehk! you use the mouse ahrr.
first sis: ya.. (few seconds) What you want?
me: (i was standing there like a stupid people) I WANT THE MOUSE LAH !
first sis: Okie! NO NEED TO BE RUDE WHAT !
me: What!? i talk like that one what, im N (T), STUPID WHAT !(walk off)
first sis: -.-" !

currently my two sis and mum was like talking bad about me ! OH! please lah ! i know im STUPID, i know im the most ugly one in 3 of us, i know im in N (t) later also i turn up to be in ITE!, I know lah they all will be going to poly ! (BIG DEAL?) then my first sis will be going to "U".

I always like my brother the best ! He will always play PS2 with me. He always joke with me ! If he marry next year, i don't know what will happen to me !

I have enough of knowing that im stupid ! in npcc also the same thing !
whatever.

LABEL: YES! IM STUPID !